Saturday, 31 December 2011


It's New Year's Eve and I'm dreading 2012. I used to get so excited about the new year. I really felt the old year was behind me and things would be different in the future. But calendars are man made. It's not like the problems I have today are going to be gone when I flip the calendar over tomorrow. Or on the other side of the coin, every day is the first day of the rest of your life, as the saying goes.  My resolution to give up eating out particularly at fast food places flew out the window today when my boyfriend decided to have Chinese food for lunch. He offered; I didn't hint or anything and I didn't want to be a killjoy by saying 'no thank you'. Then tonight he criticized me for overeating and being fat. Hmpf.
And we already have plans to go out for sushi on my birthday on Jan. 3. I really need to tighten my belt and spend less money, but in a move that truly puzzles me, I went on a craft shopping spree today.  Is that like 'eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we must die'?  Do I already feel deprived and therefore I spent money and ate out not 24 hours after I told myself to cut back? It's hard being human.